I haven’t blogged in quite a while. Since the day before Ben was born, to be exact.
The last 8 weeks have been an absolute blur, and I can’t believe so much has changed. My whole brain has shifted, and I have learned so much, you would not believe.
First, the amount of love I have for my son is beyond description. I am tearing up now just thinking about him. I never knew what other parents were talking about before having him. I love (and laugh) every time I hear his sighs, laugh and his poop grunts, even with the horrendous smells that come with them.
Second, the uncertainty I feel in everything I do is a huge surprise. The plans you have before a baby just goes out the window. You constantly want to make sure he is breathing and doing ok. Then you are worried that you are not feeding him right, giving enough stimulation or “Tummy Time” bathing him enough, etc, etc. I had planned on keeping him 100% in the crib, getting him into a sleep schedule that works for me, and getting housework done in between.
The reality is that he still doesn’t sleep through the night, he comes into bed with me in the mornings, and I’m lucky if I get the dishwasher loaded some days before Greg gets home. That’s ok tho, because he rarely cries, he laughs lots, and I know that we are his whole world, and he is ours.
Third, babies get very heavy. He has already gained over 4 pounds, and I am essentially carrying 13 pounds of potatoes constantly. shoveling all that snow has not bothered me at all. I have arms of steel now.
Finally, I am extremely proud of my husband and more in love with him every day. He gives so much of himself everyday, and that is after he has spent a full day at work he comes home to a messy house, and is more than willing to take over the baby care while I make dinner, shower etc.
And to all the other new Dad’s out there, Greg has changed more than a few really messy and stinky diapers, and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate it. - No, Greg did not pay me to say this. I just want him to know that he is not taken for granted or unappreciated.
I feel like I’m the luckiest new Mum and wife in the world.
Amen Lin. Your kids are special and always will be. You still worry about them even when their in their 30s at times
PS: Ben is a lovely baby and you can both be proud.